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Hello World
Mar. 24th, 2022 09:46 amI'm gonna be real with you dogs, this is new to me.
While I was active on Tumblr for way too long before the purge and I got addicted to twitter, I've never been one to just sit down and write about anything truly personal to myself. I'm a private person but more than that, being sincere and heartfelt on the internet gives me a primal amount of embarassment. It is something I absolutely can't overcome. It's even worse irl actually.
In 2020 I made a new tumblr, and tried to have a nice lil space to myself where I could do what I'm doing here. Post art off my main account, talk about things I liked and my OCs without stopping myself before even starting, you know things normal people do. It's normal to have ideas and opinions and favorite characters!!!
Anyhow that failed immediately as my fanart there gained traction and I got some followers. I decided instead to be more like those jp artists who literally just post art and vanish until next time. Not that I wanted to really be like that, but I couldn't bring myself to talk about anything. Instead that account mainly exists for me to follow a small bit of the tumblr Fate circle that's over there because actually seeing people talk about shit they're passionate about without the restrictions of twitter is soooo refreshing. Wish that could be me!!
Last year I even tried to keep a journal! I actually kept up with that for a lil bit, and that gave me the confidence to write some notes down about character ideas and the like! But even then, I have such a deep seated level of embarrassment and cringe that it rots my very soul, that I can't even write about things like what character is dating who and whatnot in my private notes!! It's embarassing!!! The only reason a tiny bit of that even got to exist on tumblr was because I had a cheerleading squad who quite frankly drew more of my own OCs smoochin than I did!! Getting any details outta me is squeezin blood from a stone! Yet it seems normal for people to have entire online presences based around them writing or making art of their favorite ships! Damn!!!
Anyhow,
Yeah.
Hi. I'll try not to just be an art machine and actually be a tiny bit of a person over here, I guess.
While I was active on Tumblr for way too long before the purge and I got addicted to twitter, I've never been one to just sit down and write about anything truly personal to myself. I'm a private person but more than that, being sincere and heartfelt on the internet gives me a primal amount of embarassment. It is something I absolutely can't overcome. It's even worse irl actually.
In 2020 I made a new tumblr, and tried to have a nice lil space to myself where I could do what I'm doing here. Post art off my main account, talk about things I liked and my OCs without stopping myself before even starting, you know things normal people do. It's normal to have ideas and opinions and favorite characters!!!
Anyhow that failed immediately as my fanart there gained traction and I got some followers. I decided instead to be more like those jp artists who literally just post art and vanish until next time. Not that I wanted to really be like that, but I couldn't bring myself to talk about anything. Instead that account mainly exists for me to follow a small bit of the tumblr Fate circle that's over there because actually seeing people talk about shit they're passionate about without the restrictions of twitter is soooo refreshing. Wish that could be me!!
Last year I even tried to keep a journal! I actually kept up with that for a lil bit, and that gave me the confidence to write some notes down about character ideas and the like! But even then, I have such a deep seated level of embarrassment and cringe that it rots my very soul, that I can't even write about things like what character is dating who and whatnot in my private notes!! It's embarassing!!! The only reason a tiny bit of that even got to exist on tumblr was because I had a cheerleading squad who quite frankly drew more of my own OCs smoochin than I did!! Getting any details outta me is squeezin blood from a stone! Yet it seems normal for people to have entire online presences based around them writing or making art of their favorite ships! Damn!!!
Anyhow,
Yeah.
Hi. I'll try not to just be an art machine and actually be a tiny bit of a person over here, I guess.
